Blue Blue and Blue

越来越受不了我的”好朋友“,

每个月她来看我的时候,

总会给我的情绪带来很多的振动。

我也是照单全收的SB,

总是莫名其妙的冒傻气。。。

这个月尤其的严重了。

一直情绪不高涨。。。

昨晚更是伤了宝A的心。。。

他电话那边歇斯底里的叫喊。

让我深深的觉得自己错了。

哎。。。

怎么会这个样子的?

凌晨4点醒了。。。

想想真的很希望昨天我可以在他身边。

可惜我没有。。。

今天天气还真是不错,

微微的风,暖暖的阳光

可是我的心情并没有像美丽的湖中景

反而是无奈的郁闷。。。

我能够感受到A的失望。。。

我也更加失望自己,

可是做了说了的事情,

没有办法可以挽回。。。

我不知道自己到底应该怎么样。

一年了,很久已经没有在感情里挣扎了。

这种感觉再次体验的时候,很失意。。。

不知不觉得,原来生活,人,事物都很微妙。。。

我不想要,我希望可以平静的充实的生活。。。

也许我该好好想想。。。静静了。。

明天上班了,妹妹走了,

我可以回到常规的生活了。。。

努力工作,明天要把我的画草出来。。。

关了手机,离开网络,到电影的世界

好好享受一下。。。

给心一个take a break的时间。。。

Venting

这两天不知道怎么了。。。

情绪非常之不好!

有些琐屑的小事,扰的心神有点不安静。

又是房子,又是工作,还有出行的计划。。。

委实不爽。。。哎。。。

昨天晚上做了饭以后觉得好多了。。。

谁知道今天又是这样,莫名其妙的。。。

跟A说出去玩的事情也有点着急;P

我仔细的想了想还是我自己的缘故。。。

精神状态不好,较真儿了。。。

有什么大不了的。。。能过去的就过去呗。

告诉自己,努力工作,好好享受生活!

今天上课挺开心的,我们大家开着玩笑学着英语。。

每次教课的过程中,以及 备课的过程中。。。

我都可以学到些东西,感觉还是分外的好。。。

回家了看电影了我。。。哼。。。

Tomb-sweeping day`s FUN!

It is been more than a week since I fed you last time 😛

I have a lot of things flashing in my mind now.

However, dunno where to start…

Maybe Tomb-sweeping fun will be a good beginning.

Went to Simatai with A-B, my cousin and his GF…

You will laugh at me because I cannot remember his GF`s name…

Doesn`t matter to me as long as she is a good sister 🙂

I had great time climbing the great wall and saw terrific sight from the wall,

Maybe because I was too happy, my left eye started to fuck with me

it started to poo as what you said. :/

Whatsoever, Super angela came, She saw, She experienced and she conquered. 😀

A-B gave a good impression as my cousin said…

I knew they will like him, cuz he has super nice smile

thats why I had a crush on him… 😛 happy? TRUE!

After Great Wall, A-B and me, we went to a Vietnam restaurant…

Fancy and charming food to me…will go back again. 😛

I wanna go to vietnam, I wanna go to vietnam, I wanna go to vietnam… 😉

All in all, I had a very relaxing holiday which I enjoyed a lot.

My Mom called me today, hehe

As usual, she mentioned about finding a BF again.

I don`t think I am that vain or arrogant,

However, I do have confidence…

Don`t really know why she worried that much.

Don`t wanna let her worried about me…

Bob said I should get someone love me,  I need love…

Crap, everyone needs love… But I don`t want to force something happen.

As time goes by, I tend to analyse  myselfmore and more

To get an answer why I was subconscious doing something like that

I never show that I am weak in front of my mom…

I may have cried becasue I got bad score, or anything related to my school when I was young.

However, as far as I remembered, I never cried out in front of mom.

WHY? I assume, maybe cuz she tried to show me that she is a strong mom too

which as I see, she is a super strong mom, and a great women. 🙂

She had a tough life, I want her happy and enjoy life from now on.

I don`t wanna be a burden to her any more.

In contrary, it is time for me to start to take care of myself and moreover her.

I am not a logical person, I am really not I suppose.

That is bcuz I leave everything behind my mind once it passed

Sometimes, that reflects bad effection, which brought me into argue

Especialy I am  at ease with someone I trust…

Dunno, I believe, I must have some big flaws in my personality.

Like I turned into very self-will once I am in a relationship…

Somehow, I wish I could be spoiled by my BF.

I wish he will be really a big boy and mature

dunno, maybe like a father sometimes.

hahahaha, I know, thats a bit scary. 😛

I should go to bed now… 😛